Je Te Vois… I See You.
These words have been sticking in my mind today.
After a heart to heart with a very good friend last night, I have decided to implement some changes in my life. And hopefully, by the end, I’ll be able to say to myself, Je te vois. I see you, I know you… Je sais que vous.
I have deleted all of my online dating accounts, as well as all of the contacts in my phone, facebook and msn that are not flatmates, family or close friends. The reason behind this… No More Boys… Pas Plus De Garçons! Pas Plus Sexe! No more meaningless, no more detachment. No more trying to fill the hole in my life with boys, and encounters that mean nothing.
I have vowed, No Sex until I’m in a relationship. And I’m not actively looking for one, so it could be awhile yet.
I’m considering moving out of Christchurch, maybe out of New Zealand completely.
I really want to be a Dad. Maybe that could happen this year??? Here’s to hoping!