I recently watched You’ve Got Mail for about the ten millionth time, and a few phrases really stuck out to me more than usual…
“Sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead a small life – well, valuable, but small – and sometimes I wonder, do I do it because I like it, or because I haven’t been brave? So much of what I see reminds me of something I read in a book, when shouldn’t it be the other way around? I don’t really want an answer. I just want to send this cosmic question out into the void. So good night, dear void.”
They got me thinking… the first thing in my mind, “Ohh how well you know me, Meg Ryan”, but as my joke begin to sink in, I realized it was true. Those words stuck out because they sum up a lot of how I feel.
I’m a walking cliche, I’ll be the first to admit that, in fact, it’s something I pride myself on. But recently, I’ve found it’s getting me down, which it never did before. I look at so much of my life, and can compare it to something I’ve read about, or seen in a movie… Am I totally void of an original action? Have I delved so deep into the created world, that my real life is beginning to reflect it?
It saddens me… I should be reading things and thinking “Yes, I’ve done that” or “I’ve been there”. Maybe I’m just reading to deep into those lines of Meg Ryan’s.
I realize, dear void, that this is probably somewhat more depressing and ‘deeper’ (for want of a better word), than the usual ‘first-post’ of most bloggers… but then, I’m most definitely not most bloggers.
Hang around, bare with me and join in… I plan on posting daily, and I hope, oh vast and varied void, that somewhere out there, I might make a connection, just the smallest hint of a spark, with one person (or more), who shares a similar mind as mine.
So for now, I’ll say good night, and this first post here… I just want to send my thoughts and feelings out into the cosmic void. So goodnight, dear void.